A bit of domestic discord here, sadly. It doesn't make for a very cheery Easter. Significant Other and I had a big falling out this morning and so we're now not talking.
And I know from bitter experience how things will pan out. When we're actually arguing I get really angry, but I cool down very quickly. SO is more even-tempered, but once upset stays that way for ages.
Of course, 'marital relations' go on hold for the duration of the feud - which I find really difficult to live with. I find that after the initial flash of fury I quickly feel remorse and guilt, which feeds into confusing spanko feelings.
So, I'm now feeling as though I deserve a very sound and prolonged spanking and cornertime (before a tearful making-up), but that is the last thing that's going to happen anytime soon. SO's attitude to my 'kink' is more along the lines that it is a treat to be given when I'm in good books - which turns the logic of it all on its head, doesn't it?It all means that I'm feeling down, guilty and in need of firm handling just when there's no prospect of handling of any kind. Firm or otherwise.